Today I sit....

As I sit at my usual table in the corner of my church cafe, drinking my usual cup of tea, eating my usual cup of soup I cannot help but feel grateful. I finally feel as though I am doing exactly what I  am suppose to be doing with my life. Is it possible that I have finally found my purpose? I have worked extremely hard for the things I have, fought my way through the darkest times of my life, found my faith, managed to raise two amazing children and have been married for the last fourteen years to the most fabulous man. So How could I not be grateful? God has given me strengths that I exercise on a daily basis.... To live my life with kindness, helping others to succeed and doing all I can to bless those around me. I don't get self fulfillment for these things... No it doesn't go to me!! I owe all the praise and glory to God. He is the only one that has continually had faith in me at times when no one else did. He has stirred my darkest emotions and set me on a path to learn from every mistake I made. Those times when I hit my darkest moments in life were in fact the moments when God was birthing my love for him. So today as I sit here feeling thankful, I thank God for what he has given me and for the wisdom to see what he has set before me. Perhaps my contentment comes from not thinking "what am I suppose to do" but instead trusting that I am doing exactly what God has intended for me all along....