Scribbling my words....

Writing for me started at a young age. As a teenager I kept a diary and would scribble my every thought in that journal. By the time I graduated high school I had four journals that reflected my middle and high school years. Even now as an adult I enjoy looking back on those journals. I'm reminded in detail of the roller coaster ride that it was to be a teenager and young adult. I have always wanted to turn my stories of hurt, anger, love, defeat, forgiveness and addiction into a book or blog. However, I struggled that I wasn't adequate enough or capable of putting into words properly what I had gone through and how it had shaped me. 

What I didn't know is that God was leading me towards friendships that would ultimately be responsible for pushing me to share my stories. My journey to Christ and my desire to learn to appreciate myself again had me relying on strangers for comfort, support and guidance. This was something I have never been good at. I had taught myself that I didn't need anyone and that I could camouflage my pain through addiction and numbing relationships. It was those relationships that God has connected me with as an adult that would ultimately end up changing my life. I craved the kind of life these "new" friends had and I longed for that same sparkle they so proudly displayed. It took several years but I found my way to God, created an obedient relationship with him, built stable friendships centered around my faith and begin to forgive.... 

It was these new found friendships that encouraged me to share my stories. They supported my passion to write and continue to remind me daily that my words in fact are healing and motivating if to no one else at least they are to them. I have learned to TRUST GOD enough to share his journey for me with others. By doing so my hope is that others will begin to develop a relationship with God and learn to trust him. Trust in a God that never leaves us, never fails us and is never less than perfect. Like everyone else I have struggles, challenges and doubts. However, one thing I can always count on is a God that is full of love, hope and grace.